heart-full

here i am again, about to rant.
good ol' trusty blog, my all time favourite sounding board =)
just hope it doesnt hate me for always typing out my random thots & feelings

well it's 5 days to mum's op.
ya ok fine, im worried and not the most positive of people now, admittedly.

keep wondering how things will be like when she'll be in bed most of the time...
it's at times like this that i realise how i've taken my mum for granted all these years...
just a woman at home who's got hardly any ambition -
who'll just wake up early everyday;
talk to her daughters or nag at them in the morning;
watch us get ready for work;
send us out the door;
start her day with prayers;
moving on to chores ard the house (cleaning, washing, ironing);
have lunch alone;
occasionally go grocery shopping alone;
carry all the heavy groceries alone;
chat up with her sis or mum;
watch her soap operas in the late afternoon alone;
prepare dinner;
wait for her husband to come home;
cook dinner;
wash up;
watch some more tv;
wait for her daughters to come home;
say her prayers and go to bed.

yup. that pretty much sums up her life on a daily basis.
exciting isnt it?

i just want everything to turn out well.
mum to be happy with her op and the outcome - that she wont be in excruciating pain
that she'll be ok...
that the rest of us at home can get our act together and not have to clean up after one another.
it's time to show some "family spirit" ard here now.
above all, i just wish for mum to stay positive no matter what.
only we know how much courage it took for her to agree to this.

i must focus on the objective. and remain focused.

my family's the top priority right now and im not going to let anything change that.